I’m Alpha. Tough shit if you don’t like it or agree with me, but I have Superwoman Syndrome. Although syndrome makes it sounds like an affliction (sometimes is, I guess) – I get mad amounts of work done in a day. In a normal day, I’ll probably have 2 meetings, be on my BlackBerry whilst walking, replying and checking more emails, returning and answering calls and staying up to date with friends and family.
Trouble with me, is that I.Just.Cannot.Slow.Down. I’m usually wide awake in bed and my mind is always running in fast forward. I don’t know how to relax because I fear that I haven’t got something done in the day. And that of course this affects relationships. Men have accused me of being aggressive, too much to bear or handle, argumentative, hot headed and every name that’s derogatory about being ambitious under the sun. I’m used to it really.
When i was younger, I was in a long term relationship with a man (for about a year or so) and things were lovely. When i met him, i was still in college and was going to a University the following year. In that year, things dramatically changed. My dad passed away and he never came to the funeral much less supported me and I STILL stayed with the idiot because I genuinely believed that he loved me. WRONG! *buzzer sound*. Subconsciously, I started to distance myself and as I felt myself growing into the woman i was meant to be – his presence increasingly frustrated me. I began to resent him more and more, day by day. Eventually, i called time on it when it all became too much for me.
Back when i was younger, I didn’t realize that average guys just do NOT cut it for me. “Average” guys with dead-end lives, no ambition and being assholes in general. Now? Fast forward a few years and I don’t even LOOK at most guys that come my way, much less stop to entertain their stupidity. I have focus, drive and a goal (10 million of them) to reach. An Alpha woman can only be with a man who is a warrior physically and a champion at heart. I make life very difficult for myself because I am a loving and very caring woman but I drive an extremely hard bargain when it comes to relationships and I have no trouble slamming the door in a man’s face, should he act out of line. I don’t have the time for fools.
98% of the guys would want to date me because of my physical appearance and because i have more than half a brain but that % could never ever handle me in all of my elixir. I’d intimidate, threaten and scare the shit out of a majority of these guys who are curious as to what I’m actually about.
I respect and honor champions. I know they are rare but i really love them.See some words or phrases that you don't understand? Check out The Dragon's Lexicon.